Third Heart Procedure in 8 Weeks

Screenshot 2018-03-08 at 2.18.19 PMThe Roto Rooter and stenting heart procedure is scheduled for Monday, March 26 at the University of Washington Medical Center.

This will be my 3rd heart procedure in 8 weeks.

I’ve had close to a dozen heart procedures, open heart quadruple bypass, and multiple stents, but this is a record for me. I’ve never had so many heart procedures in such a short time.

I have heart disease. My body is healthy but my body continues to produce plaque that keeps clogging arteries. As a result, I had two heart attacks before I turned 38.

Here’s why I tell you all this: I should be dead. The only reason why I am still here is by the grace of God.

I journal every day and every single journal entry starts with “God, thank you for this day.” I start my journal this way because every day is another day I don’t deserve. Had I been born ten years sooner, I would be dead. It is because today’s doctors can do the types of procedures and surgeries they regularly do on me, and because of the advancement in medicines that I am still around.

But most importantly, it’s because of God’s grace.

That I am still around can only mean one thing: there are still things God wants me to accomplish. When I am done being of use to God, God will call me home.

If God wanted me home, it wouldn’t take much for me to be with him in an instant. I am literally one heart beat away from being in God’s presence.

Every day I wake up, I thank God for another day I shouldn’t have had. Every day is a gift.

Now here’s the take away for you: you don’t need chronic heart disease to realize that every day is a gift from God. You may not have chronic heart disease or cancer. But, if God wanted you home, there’s nothing you could do to prevent that. The only reason why you are still here is because God still has things for you to do.

So, thank God for this day. And, now, go and do what you were created to do for the kingdom of Jesus Christ!

I am an Expert Practitioner of These Verses…and It’s Exhausting!!!

Screenshot 2018-03-07 at 1.51.40 PMI do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do – this I keep on doing (Romans 7:15-19).

This is one passage I have no problem practicing. I am an expert practitioner of these verses…and it’s exhausting!!!

I long for a day when I will be free from the pull of the flesh. I long for a day when I will fully be who I am in Christ.

Until that day, I will continue to wrestle. I will continue to battle. I am okay with that…until that day, when Christ shall return and set me free.

Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! (Romans 8:24).

Two Ways of Understanding

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“Understand in order to accept/believe”

“Accept and believe in order to understand”

One leads to skepticism and isolation, and the other to acceptance and peace.

In the world of science, it is perfectly right and good to demand proof before we give our assent and agreement. That’s how science works.

  • Prove it first, then the proof and understanding leads to acceptance and belief.
  • Such proofs should be repeatable.

While this works fine in the world of science, this would never work in relationships.

  • If a spouse demanded understanding before acceptance, such marriage is doomed.
  • If a parent or a child demanded proof before acceptance, that is a guarantee for a breakdown of trust and further division.
  • If a friend demanded understanding prior to acceptance, they would not be a friend much longer.

The reason for this is relationships require love, but skepticism and doubt snuffs out love.

Our culture demands proof when faith is about a relationship.

We will never arrive at faith as long as we demand proof. Faith is about a relationship with a God who loves rebels and sinners so much, that God could not leave sinners and rebels in our sin and rebellion. So God sent his Son to die for sinners, so that whosoever should believe in his Son would have everlasting life and relationship with God.

Faith is relationship, and until we understand that, we will remain in our skepticism and isolation.

God loves you.

I genuinely hope you believe that.